Hi My Love we had a really lovely weekend weather wise I managed to get a lot done in the garden I bought some more plants for your garden and the new lights look lovely. Loren had some friends round for a bbq on sunday they all semed to enjoy themselves. I really missed you being there I know that that wasnt your thing but I missed you all the same its so hard not having any one to share thigs with thats what I miss sharing things with you and talking about things maybe trivial things but talking I miss you giving me a hug when things go wrong and telling me that every thing will be ok. Its so lonely without you Kevin. Its 1 year ago today that you had the operation on your throat you were poorly my love but we didnt know how poorly you really were, we were optimistic at that point even when the doctor told us there was a lump in your throat he was optimistic or he seemed to be but perhaps he knew but couldnt tell us until they were 100% sure. All these things are with me all the time at the moment thats because its getting closer to your aniversary and the time is going by so quickly I am trying to keep my self busy but things pop into my head when I dont expect it. I am trying to get on with things but every day is the same, I wonder what lies in store for me now that you are gone and I still dont see a future not one without you so I suppose I will just carry on day after day until I am with you again, I love you so much Kevin and I miss you xx