Hi My Love well today is exactly a year ago that things started what I mean is its one year ago since your first appointment at the LGI when things started to go so wrong for us its hard to believe that a year has passed so quickly it doesnt seem so long ago. You had only 12 weeks and one day to live if only things had been better we didnt have many good days from then on did we? hospital visits operations and all the waiting and wondering I dont know how we managed my love. The next few weeks are going to be really hard because its on my mind all the time now I am remembering nearly every day all that happened to us well most of it happened to you but like I told you then we will cope with whatever and we will do it together and we did, but now I have to cope with the looking back on it all on my own. I just wish and I hope that we did everything right, right for you my love. I also wish that the last 12 weeks had been better in every respect I wish you could have enjoyed more days than you did talked more than you did. I miss you so much Kevin and I love you just as much now as I ever did. I know I will always love you and I know that one day I will be with you again I honestly do believe that Kevin. I love you sweetheart xxx