Hi My Love well we are into November now I dont like this time of year as you know dark nights and cold weather. But espacially this year as I keep thinking this was the time of year 8 years ago that we got together on the 5th November we decided to live together you moved in here with me and Loren when I think about it it seems like yesterday and I get so sad. I miss you so much Kevin. I keep thinking all these thoughts how you wont be here for another cold winter how you wont be here for another christmas even though you weren't that bothered for christmas or were you really? Its not a good time for me I look for you everywhere when I am walking the dogs I imagine you walking with me I look for you Kevin. Wherever I go there are memories of you sometimes I can smile but most of the time I am so sad, I just want you here with me I want our life back. I have ordered a plaque for you and I will put it on the bench beside your garden and when I sit and talk to you it will be like you are there with me sat beside me. I love you My Kevin and I miss you so much all my love now and always your Wife Tracey xx