Hi My Love things are just the same really I went to lorens school last week to talk about her going into the 6th form next year she is doing so well at the moment mostly A results you would be so proud of her you always said she was clever. I went to St Gemmas last week to a session to try and help bereaved people cope with the 1st Christmas there was 4 of us there I dont know if it helped because all I did was sit and cry really I dont like going there because I expect to be going to see you then reality hits and I realise that you are not there any more I hate it when reality kicks in. Sometimes things seem easier then all of a sudden I feel like I am going backwards again I honestly dont think I will ever get over losing you I suppose in time I will learn to live with it but its so hard I love you Kevin xx