Hi Sweetheart I have been up and down just lately today a year ago was the last time we spoke properly to each other and, the last time I did anything for you. I keep going over it in my mind trying to remember every little detail, and it still hurts so much. I called to see Barry on Monday and made a fool of myself by crying, he didnt know what to do. I decided against putting anything in the paper for you You would have said its a waste of money so instead I have given Barrys wife some money to sponser her, she is doing a walk for St Gemmas and I thought I would rather the money went there instead of to the paper I know you would think that is the best thing to do. Its still so hard thinking that its a year ago that you left it just doesnt seem possible that you have been gone for so long yet it doesnt seem very long to me. I know you are in a better place but that doesnt stop me missing you and loving you I will love you until the day I die. I have a verse for you my love. " What you were You will always be My life My love My memory " I miss you so much My Kevin and I know You are with me wherever I go watching over me. I love You Sweetheart. And I just wish You were here with me all my love for always your wife Tracey xx I miss you so much Kevin