Hi Sweetheart its now 10 months and one day since I lost you I seem to be having more good days than bad days just recently which I suppose is good but when the bad days come they really come. I went out at the weekend and at the time I enjoyed myself but once I got back home well the dam burst and I cried over you again I keep imagining that you are with me in the pub and I look around and you are not there i can picture you standing where you always stood I wish so much that you were with me Kevin I miss you so much. Stupid people say things to me like you will be looking for another man now Tracey its been nearly a year you are still young you will meet someone else. They cant seem to grasp that I dont want anyone else Kevin I had the best that was you my love and no one else comes close to that they never will. I am not interested in meeting anyone I dont want that and I know I will never want that but people dont understand. I love you as much now as I always did, just because you are not here doesnt change that my love. You and I both know that, what you said to me about our love being in our hearts is so true Kevin we both know that. I will love you for the rest of my life and I will miss you for the rest of my life and I know that one day when my time comes we will be together again and this time it will be for always. I love you sweetheart your wife Tracey xx