Hi My Love I have had a really bad weekend I have done a lot of crying and thinking I feel so down at the moment I think its because my birthday is coming up very soon and it will be the first one in 8 years that you are not here to share it with me remember we were going to go on holiday for this one as its a special one but youre not here to share that with me so this is another first for me but I will get through it I have to Loren wants to celebrate it but thats not what I really want to do but she doesnt really understand.I miss you so much My Kevin I know we will be together again but its hard not being with you now I think of you often and I try to remember the good things we had but then that makes me miss you even more I know you are healthy again and happy and that is what I want for you but its the ones left behind that find it hard. I love you so much stay near me all my love for always your wife Tracey xx