Hi My Love well its 1am and I am sat here thinking of you and missing you so much its so lonely without you here I feel as if my life is out of control at the minute and I dont know how to get it back under control again. I seem to be letting things go that I shouldnt and I am finding it so hard without you at the moment its like a physical pain I am hurting so much I miss you so much I feel like I am alone all the time even when there are people around me I am still alone thats the only way I can think of to describe it to you. I am sorry for moaning I am trying hard but just now I feel like I am going backwards. I hope the next time I write to you I will be feeling a little better thats all for now My Love I love You so much My Kevin my gorgeous man xx