Hi My Love its snowing this morning I thought that we were past the snow but there it was this morning. I went out last night to celebrate my birthday well I didnt celebrate but I went out for a drink with Paula its just not the same without you I dont think anything will ever be the same and I dont think I will ever get used to you not being here its so hard Kevin I sometimes think that things will get easier but they never do I just cant accept that thigs will never be the same again things just get on top of me and I cant seem to shake it off on the outside I suppose I look as though I am coping but on the inside I am still a total mess I just miss you and want you back I hope you understand what I mean I love you so much My Kevin xx