Hi My Love things pretty much the same still finding it hard without you there are things i need to talk to you about so i keep having conversations with you and hoping you will give me some answers it sounds strange but thats the way it is i feel as though i am not in control at the moment and i need to take back control but its hard without you to help me try and give me some guidance which ever way you can. Missing you so much my love nothing is the same without you. Doing my 5 mile walk next Saturday in your memory hope i manage it i am sure i will and i know you will be walking beside me. I love you Kevin xx